sam I am... the legend that is I

This is the blog of an Undergrad at York U, and for now I am majoring in Information Technology, I am just the typical out of High School teenager still trying to figuire out life

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

Ah Thanksgiving what a weekend, Thursday night I get... Drunk well buzzed I guess whatever all I had was 4 & 1/2 shots of Rum and I was... just cheerfull I really was, I faintly remember hugging a good many number of girls, and in the pub I was struck up a conversation with someone, after pub we just talked to some people from our house. On Saturday my dad buys an LCD monitor for my mom's computer and, while I am in the store I ask him if I can get a dvd burner and he buys one, so now I can burn dvd's !!!!. Went to Niagra Falls on monday which was alright, wasn't the out of the ordinary fun, but it was a good change of scenery from the usual weekend routine so thats good. Tuesday night I somehow end up staying up until 1 am watching the Apocalypse Now dvd I burned with my new burner, that doesnt' help the fact that today I have a test in Critical Thinking And Writing, and I ended up going to sleep at like 2 am, and waking up about 10 minutes to 8, which left me rushing through my morning routine, and making it just in the nick of time for Programming. and so I finish of by Saying one thing: life is many things, its confusing, its fun, its weird, its random, its structured, but no matter what happens in life, you only live once so make the most of any situation and just LIVE.

ps. a good tip for tests is to always bring extras, today in my Critical Thinking And Writing test my pen cap just snapped off, and I would have been in one dilemma had I not brought extra supplies.

Thursday, October 09, 2003

its about 2 minutes until 3 am as I begin writing this, and yet I continue to reflect on life, for some strange reason. I am alive and I am aware of it all, and I go through the whole routine of a day and do things like shower in the morning, brush my teeth, go to class then go to do stuff like eating and sleeping or whatever. Throughout it all I feel a sense of detachment of it all like I am alive but not really. Then there's my time on the computer where I am doing various things... some of which I dont quite feel comfortable mentioning, though its not of a malicious nature I dont enjoy the kind of hold it has on me. I'd like to be a more socially active person, and I am not sure if I am the one that stops that from happening or what. I don't know what exactly I am trying to "find" but I don't feel like I am going in a particular direction at this point in my life and i'd like something to shoot for besides work, work, work. Not intentionally reffering to movie cliche's like Jerry Mguire, I'd like to feel complete and right now I fell like I am lacking a sense of completeness. So thats my rant for today it is a fairly late hour and I should get to sleep for tommorow afternoon's class.

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

So today the fire alarm goes off at midnight, and its the strangest thing, cause I was about to go to sleep and everything, and then everyone's all awake now so everybody in our building goes outside, which is pretty cold by the way but I got a chance to view the night sky briefly which wasn't bad lots of stars out, and that moonlight is just eerly calming to see. When I got back many people sure had hoped there was a fire cause it was a shame to get out all for nothing, or worse... a Drill !!. All of this excitement end up kind of making me want to stay up. turns out the cause of the fire alarm was somebody upstairs had burnt noodles while microwaving them, so they caught on fire cause they didn't use enough water. Other than our Yom Kippur Monday off things have been pretty un-eventfull this week for me, and so life goes on... until next time

Thursday, October 02, 2003

hello, where do I start... I got alot of stuff on my mind, its after midnight its almost 1 am right now, and I am tired but at the same time I can't seem to get to sleep I don't know why. It's thursday tommorow have one class in the aftertoon and today was my busy day, so why am I still not sleeping.
maybe its the test I just got back for a class, its unexpected results or maybe its that assignment due next week which as simple as it may sound I still haven't had the chance to really get started, or maybe its the fact that I am expecting this revelation in life to happen and I am just waiting around for it to happen, I dunno what it is right now I am just a place in my life where it all feels like one big dream or something. All these new people in my life is a little confusing, I dunno where I fit in or if I fit in, or whatever its a whole new place, and it is all fun, exciting yet at the same time its confusing, and frustrating. I learned a great deal about myself during the course of my life, made a few mistakes and learned from many of those mistakes, but whats next? there's alot of things I am finding out lately that I still don't know, and hopefully i'll be able to pick up on that stuff soon enough. So Farewell until the next time I think of something else to write.