sam I am... the legend that is I

This is the blog of an Undergrad at York U, and for now I am majoring in Information Technology, I am just the typical out of High School teenager still trying to figuire out life

Monday, July 11, 2005

the melody of a broken record

I know how late it is but for some reason I am not sleeping. Yet I planned on going to sleep earlier, for some reason I have compelled myself to stay up this late. for no other reason then it seems than habit? I am now quite certain that I am in some sort of rut. The problem is I am always in a rut, and whenever I convince myself that I can get out of said rut I continue to stay in such rut. So what to do about it? I am just tired of all this routine, everything stays the same with me I really want to accomplish something. Sometimes I think thats the only thing that keeps me going, the need to do something, but what? What am I missing in this picture? Is this normal? I get a sense of incompleteness in my life and it seems no matter where I look or what I do I am still unsatisfied. Is it so hard to do the things that I want to do? To accomplish the things I would like to accomplish. Perhaps I am not pushing myself hard enough? who knows... what am I afraid of? am I afraid of something? Or am I just inventing all of this somehow, I don't know what it is. I need to find out, I need to know, I just have to know. and most important of all I got to stop staying up these late nights. Well this blogger is going to bed now, post your comments if you wish,
cheers.

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