sam I am... the legend that is I

This is the blog of an Undergrad at York U, and for now I am majoring in Information Technology, I am just the typical out of High School teenager still trying to figuire out life

Monday, August 23, 2004

well its nearly the end of the summer and what has changed? For one I am writing this post from my new laptop which I got on Saturday. Its the Asus M6B00Ne model in case anyone is wondering which I found to be a pretty good price for what was in it. Even though I had to install most of the software myself, drivers are included as well as a bag, it comes with a one year warranty as well which is more or less standard with most makes. Anyways this will be my last week working at P&F and let me say its been an interesting experience to say the least. On more than one occasion I got very little sleep late habits that I have. I have also met people of different points of view, some of which make you appreciate the value of education (not that I am trying to sound offensive or anything) . Thursday will be my last day and then its Friday where I will literally have a million things to do, before I go away the following week to Cuba. Then the week after that life at school begins again. Its funny how quick time goes by when you get older, I mean 8 months of school just swept through like that and I can say the same for this 4 months of summer. Only difference between then and now is that I am cautiously more optimistic about this year.

One final remark this iPod has provided me with plenty of an opportunity to actually get into exploring what my music tastes are, so if anybody is reading this and has any song picks feel free to send a comment about it

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

So how the heck am I doing?.... o.k I guess.

I got myself a job these days working where my dad works, fixing up some Quality Control (or lack thereof) guy's screw up @P&F Tool and Die. I get up at 5 in the morning which usually means anytime before 6, because it takes about 45 minutes to get there. I come back exhausted at the end of the day, comforted by the thought of my $10/hour compensation for my work. I bought an ipod so far with my first week's pay, still haven't decided what to do with the rest of what I have earned.

Already its now August and 3 months of my holidays have passed it seems that September is just around the corner, the start of another School Year. Which means my second year of University, another year at Glendon and unlike most years I am actually looking forward to it. I can't help but have alot of questions going through my mind as the year is going to start. Is my French mark going to improve? who is new at school? who has left? how will life change? how are my grades this year? The Second year is not quite like the first year, you know your way around more, you know more people and what to expect. Yet why is it the only thing I can think about is the failures of High School for which I left behind 2 years ago? is that what holds me back from reaching my true potential? or do I have the unconsious propensity to be socially neutral? and why. How do you balance school and life? I mean there's no books written about it, nobody to tell you how to act or organize yourself? or does it have anything to do with structure? do you live by the seat of your pants? or do you shedulle everything accordingly.

I've never been the most outgoing person, I guess there's just something comfortable about being the timid type. I mean for one thing you don't have to worry about rejection because if you don't make an effort to begin with, how can you be rejected? but I hate it, I want to be able to go out and enjoy myself, I want to know that there are people out there that care what I have to say, and what I feel. I enjoy the company of others its one of the most miraculous things about life, to have a connection with people around you who are completely outside of yourself. To listen to other ideas and to open your mind to different concepts. I guess everything in life is its own challenge.

So to finish off, I am feeling optimistic about the future there are different things that you have to deal with on a day by day basis, you make your choices and live with it and thats it. Keep looking forward and never look back, and its never too late for anything. Take risks, make mistakes, have fun, and Laugh